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January 24, 2014 Leave a comment

So, it’s been way too long since I’ve posted anything. Life gets in the way sometimes. As I approach graduation time, it’s pretty much crunch time to pass all my classes. Anyway, there are some updates for the books and such so lets get to it.

Blood Monarch is the next book in the Dragon Hunters series. While originally just Anaya and Galen’s book, it has now been made to include Vlad and Vacker, as it’s high time to resolve the issue of Vacker’s disappearance. It’s going to get rough, and Vlad of course finds his soul mate in an unexpected person. I’ll let you makes guesses at that until the book is finished and published.

The next book will be Andreas and Kazarian’s book. Yes, they get a second book. There’s so much more to Andreas than what was covered in the Lost Dragon. After all, he’s lived over 11,000 years. The skeletons in his closet are legion, and they’re about to come to the surface. It’s going to be a bumpy road to say the least for my first happy couple.

Journeys will be rewritten as I’ve decided Landon can’t be human. He seems to be a vampire, which is pretty boss with me. Still, this will be separate from the main series. Different lore and legends, abilities, reaction to daylight, etc. Same issues will be in there, just with some supernatural twists. I should be able to finish that shortly.

Now, for those sending review requests. I have gotten them. I have responded to one and gotten it, so that review will come soon. It’s mainly me again doing the reviews, and I choose the most interesting first. I have done some other non requested by an author reading that I need to post some reviews to. Expect those in the coming days. Not too many, as some of these should never have been published in my opinion and I don’t like to read bad reviews. Just a note to any who submit erotica to me: I love erotica and have no issue reviewing it, so long as you are writing erotica and not a porno script. If you don’t know the difference, you’re probably writing the latter. Now, it’s time for me to get to work on these reviews


Pagan Journeys: Tarot Cards and Meanings by Sabrina Calligan

April 21, 2013 2 comments

We have another guest post from the lovely Sabrina Calligan, further expanding on the subject of tarot cards with their meanings.


Although the original Tarot Cards were to keep secret records of history they have evolved over time to other uses as well. These days they are most popular with divination. The Tarot Card has also recently been used for playing games and gambling. They are also potent in casting spells. The more experienced will use the Tarot Card for casting spells, while others use the Tarot Card in paintings, gifts and even for decoration. There have spawned many different styles of the Tarot Card over the years with the most popular still being the Rider Waite Tarot card deck.


There are 78 cards to a tarot deck. This is made up of 22 major arcana and 56 minor arcana and the fool. Arcana is the plural form of the Latin word arcanum, meaning “closed” or “secret”.

The fool is numbered 0. The major arcana which represent the original tarot deck are numbered 1 to XX1.

The minor arcana are made up of 4 kings, 4 queens, 4 knights, four aces, and the cards numbered 2 to 10.

Tarot Cards have originated from various countries. In the traditional Italian card, there are Swords, Batons, Coins and Cups. In more modern tarot card, the Batons are called called Wands, Rods or Staves. The Coins are called Pentacles. Because these days the Tarot Card serve many purposes there are a large variety of Tarot decks.

The exact origins and beginnings of the tarot card are unsure. There is no factual evidence that shows these beginnings. Most of this evidence was long since destroyed during the times of the inquisition and religious persecutions of the times. What we do know, is what was the original purpose and meaning of the tarot card. The tarot card were originally a way of recording the true history of the Celtic church and bloodlines of Jesus. It must be realized that during these times to say or do anything that was against the beliefs of the church would see you tortured and killed. Just being in possession of tarot cards would mean death. The church knew the people were using tarot cards as a form of recording history and as such During the inquisition were people were tortured, burned and killed. As the church rewrote the history of Jesus and the Celtic church to suit their purpose the people kept the true history alive through such things as tarot cards. Famous painters such as Botticelli and Leonardo da Vinci painted hidden messages in their paintings recording the truth of the bloodlines of Jesus. The earliest date attributed to the tarot card is seen in European museums is 1390. But the actual origins of the cards is thought to go back far earlier. King Edward the 4th in the 15th century banned the importation of tarot cards. However, many people did keep the Tarot cards, especially the nobility. With the eventual collapse of the inquisition times, freedom swept Europe, and as it did, tarot cards became the fashion. The fact that gypsies subsequently used the tarot card for divination was quite incidental to there original purpose. The meaning of the Tarot Card in divination is vastly different to the meaning of the tarot Card in History.

The major arcana represent the original deck of tarot cards. The minor arcana were added much later to the Tarot Cards. The major arcana are made up of 22 cards in the Tarot pack which are numbered 1 to XX1. The major arcana are the most important cards in a Tarot Card Meaning spread and the minor arcana are built around them. Each tarot card has a name, number and symbol which can be traced back over hundreds of years.

The minor arcana consists of 56 cards in the Tarot deck. It consists of four suits – wands, pentacles, clubs, swords. The court cards consist of king, queen, knight, page and ace. The court cards usually represent people. The aces are the beginning of the sequence of the ten cards of a Tarot suit of the minor arcana. Their meaning may also represent the different seasons. The other cards of the minor arcana are the situation cards which are numbered 11 to X in the Tarot deck.

Rider-Waite Tarot Card Deck:
It was in December 1909 that the first deck were published. The Pictorial Key to the Tarot by A.E. Waite was published in 1910. Since then the Rider-Waite tarot card deck has been used all the world over. When one looks at the tarot card you may sem to think that the images are very simple in nature. But this is in fact very deceptive of their true value and the information they contain. When one looks more closely at the tarot cards you will soon find vast amounts of information. The tarot cards of the Rider-Waite deck are in many ways still similar to early tarot cards. What Waite has done with his deck of tarot is tone down some of the Christian influence. We can see that the Pope card has changed to the Hierophant.

Tarot Card Meaning:

It should be noted that there are three basic meanings to the tarot card. The first is the Symbolic meaning of the tarot card. Both what the symbols on the tarot card mean individually and also as a collective symbol. The second is the divinational meaning of the tarot card. That is the divinational meaning of the individual card in a reading or as part of a tarot card layout. The third is reversed. When the tarot is reversed in a spread the meaning becomes very different. Usually it will indicate the negative or opposite of the upright card. For example when the lovers card is upright it means Faithful but when it is reversed it means unfaithful. Another example may be the magician card, which when upright may mean talented but when reversed may mean no talent. The reverse meaning helps establish the line of direction the inquirer is headed for.

The Major Arcana

0 – The Fool
Innocence, optimism, blind faith, risk. Carefree, foolish, indiscreet, vague. This card represents inexperience. It is the direction of the unknown. The wallet tied to the wand over his shoulder carries the four magic symbols he will need to learn. The fool is about to pass into a path of life that each soul must journey. Divination Meaning – the subject of the reading is a dreamer. They must be very careful in their decision making. Reversed – Thoughtlessness, gambler or gambling, mania a warning to look before you leap.

1 – The Magician
Creativity, control over worldly events, a powerful person. Skill, diplomacy, will and confidence. Masculine, talented, creative, gifted. The magician stands before a table on which are the Wand, Sword, Cup and Pentacle, which represent the minor arcana. He is about to draw power from the universe. The magician represents man’s will in union with the divine in achieving the power and knowledge. Divination Meaning – Has the ability to take power from above and direct it through desire into manifestation. Indicates organizational skills. Strong ability to take charge and organize. Reversed – Negative use of power, magus, depression, stopping and starting some activity.

2 – The High priestess
Secrets, mystery, intuition, psychic powers, a virgin or widow. Feminine, secrets, confidant, mystery. The High Priestess sits between the two pillars of the Temple of Solomon. Boaz, the black pillar represents the negative life force while, Jachin, the white pillar, represents the positive life force. The High Priestess has on her lap a scroll of esoteric wisdom. Divination Meaning – When this card appears in a man`s reading it indicates the perfect woman he dreams of. In a woman`s reading it may indicate she can find such values in herself. Hidden influences here at work. This person may have talents in the area of art, music or poetry. Reversed – Hidden enemies usually female, superficial people.

3 – The Empress
Mental and physical fertility, sensual, abundance, maternal, fruitfullness and domesticity. Feminine, motherly, fertility, creation. The Empress is the Earth mother. The Empress hair is bound by a wreath of myrtle. The heart shaped shield has the symbol of Venus. She wears a crown of twelve stars. The Empress is the Goddess of love, Venus and the symbol of universal fecundity. Divination Meaning – Represents the mother or sometimes the grandmother. Reversed – Loss, lack of money, a difficult pregnancy or miscarriage.

4 – The Emperor
Ambition, organization, leadership, a successful man. Masculine, fatherly, advisor. The Emperor sits in a throne commanding and stately. In his right hand he holds an Egyptian Ankh and in his left hand is the globe of domination. The Emperor is the active father force. Divination Meaning – The fruits of toil, the results of action. Represents the father or figure of authority. Reversed – Weakness, lack of power or direction.

5 – The Hierophant
Convention, religion, education, ideas. Marriage, union, relationships, blessing, consent. The Hierophant sits between the two pillars of the Tree of Life from the Kabalah. The capitals of the pillars are decorated with mystic symbols of sexual union. The Hierophant is the ruling power of external Religion. Divination Meaning – Indicates religion, ceremony and ritual. Sometimes indicative of the star sign Taurus. The importance of social approval. Reversed – Eccentricity, rebellion, desire for freedom.


6 – The Lovers
Love and romance, sexual attraction, a choice between two distinct paths. Lovers, partners, union, relationships. We find Raphael pouring down cosmic benediction on the man and woman. Divination Meaning – The struggle between sacred love and profane harmony. Refers to love and relationships. Reversed – A warning against any new relationship, infidelity, a difficult patch with a partner.

7 – The Chariot
Travel usually associated with work, success through hard work and personal effort, News from abroad. Transportation, movement, journey, progress. Signifies victory for the triumphant king who has conquered on all planes. The chariot stands for the human personality. The symbol on the front of the chariot shows the wings of inspiration. Divination Meaning – Decisions to be made as the enquirer is being pulled in two different directions. May indicate travel. Mental and physical powers should lead to fulfillment. Reversed – Overwhelming ambition, scattering of energy.

8 – Justice
Balance, harmony, fairness, a court case or legal matter. Legal, balance, justice, equality. Justice is seated between the positive and negative forces. Her sword is lifted in defence of justice. Divination Meaning – Justice will be done. Indicates some sort of legal activity. Whether it is favourable will depend on the follow on card. Reversed – Unfairness, indecisiveness, problems with decisions.

9 – The Hermit
A helpful wise person, the need to be alone, silence is golden, roguery, corruption, treason. Solitude, guidance, thinking, reflection. The Hermit stands isolated on a snow covered peak. He holds a lantern to guide those below. This is the lamp of truth. Divination Meaning – A journey may be necessary in order to gain knowledge. A chance meeting will guide the seeker on the right path. Reversed – Refusing to listen to good advice, unable to settle down.

10 – Wheel of Fortune
Unexpected good luck, a sudden turn of events, a fresh start. Destiny, direction, future, change. The Wheel of Fortune carries destinies up and down. The Sphinx at the top of the wheel is Wisdom, suggesting that we are not always governed by chance or fate, and that we have the ability to change our lives. Divination Meaning- Success and good luck. Fate is about to make a change in your life for the better. Reversed – Delay for hoped for changes, difficulties that are outside your control.

11 – Strength
Triumph over the negative, courage, working with nature, power, energy. Fortitude, strength, energy, vitality. A women covered in flowers who may be opening or closing a lion`s mouth. Above her head is the cosmic lemniscate of eternal life. She is showing spiritual courage. Divination Meaning – Indicates willpower to overcome adversity. Love over hate. Spiritual power overcoming material power. Reversed – Fear, doubt, loneliness, abuse of power.

12 – The Hanged Man
Rebirth, restriction followed by a change of heart, wisdom, discernment. Restricted, stopped, limited, suspend. A young man is suspended by one foot from a T-Cross of wood. To an extent the Hanged Man is still Earthbound. He has attained a measure of perfection but not yet complete freedom. We see in the Hanged Man the dependency on the Cosmic Tree of Life. Divination Meaning – A pause in one’s life. Material temptation is conquered. Reversed – Taking the easy way out, refusal to learn, selfishness.

13 – Death
End of a chapter, new beginnings, major changes. End, finish, final, cease. A skeleton in armor tramples over a fallen king. Death carries a banner which is the symbol of Mars and the Life Force. The river in the background indicates the constant circulation of the Life Force into materialization and out again. Divination Meaning – The end of a situation. Birth of new ideas. Reversed – Boredom, stagnation, lethargy.

14 – Temperance
Peace or the need for it, the countryside, team work, moderation, frugality. Temperate, balance, control, moderate. Represents the archangel Michael. He is pouring the essence of life from the silver cup of the subconscious into the golden cup of the conscious. This shows the entry of the spirit into matter and the influence of matter upon spirit. It also shows the flowing of the past through the present and into the future again. Divination Meaning – A period of peace and harmony. Working in harmony with others. Reversed – Quarrels, difficulties at work or within the family.

15 – The Devil
Money worries, difficult situations, depression, lust, scandal. Anger, violence, jealousy, selfishness. He has a goat`s face and horns. He has donkey ears suggesting materialism. He sits on a half cube indicating half knowledge. In reality there is no Devil, just in man`s creation. The chains around the neck are loose and can be removed at any time. Divination Meaning – Be warned in regards to money and love. Wrong use of force. Bondage to materialism. Reversed – Freedom from care, release, fulfilling and meaningful sexual relationship.

16 – The Tower
Unexpected upheaval, sudden change out of your control, disruption. Destruction, loss, ruin, breakdown. The tower of ambition that is built on false promises. Materialistic thoughts fall from the building. Streaks of lightning come from the Sun and destroy that which is evil. Divination Meaning – Loss, bankruptcy and disaster. Not a good card. What will follow depends on the follow on cards. Reversed – Inability to welcome change, trying to alter things without success, lies.

17 – The Star
Hope, light at the end of the tunnel, a need for rest and relaxation. Prospects, hope, destiny, opportunity. A beautiful maiden kneels with one foot balanced on the water of the subconscious. She is the Empress and Mother Nature pouring the waters of life onto the material Earth. Divination Meaning – Good health. Love will be given and received. Reversed – Longing for the unattainable, stress, negative thoughts.

18 – The Moon
Illusions, dreams, depression caused by blocked imagination. Caution, beware, moody, risk. The Moon in three phases watches over the land. A crayfish appears symbolizing the early stages of conscious powers. The wolf is natures untamed creation. Divination Meaning – Night will be of importance. Mystic dreams. Reversed – Nothing is what it seems, read the small print, having to put something (a dream, relationship or idea) on ice for the time being.

19 – The Sun
Joy, success, happiness, energy, a much loved child. Success, happiness, abundance, productive. A child rides a white horse and holds a banner. The horse is solar energy that needs no control. The child represents perfect control between the conscious and the unconscious. He holds the banner in his left hand to to show that control has now has now passed from the conscious(right hand), into the subconscious(left hand). Divination Meaning – Holidays and success. A happy reunion. Happy marriage. Reversed – Happiness in small measure, a warning about going over the top.

20 – Judgement
New ideas, fresh vitality, a positive decision. Renewal, change, transfer, alter. The angel Gabriel emerges from the heavens blowing on his bannered trumpet. This blast from the trumpet is the word that liberates man from his limitations. The cross on the banner is the solar symbol of the balance of forces. The coffins float on the sea of cosmic mind stuff. Divination Meaning – A life well lived, a work well done. Legal judgement in one’s favour. May also indicate a funeral of someone close. Reversed – Failure, not seeing the heart of the matter, carelessness.

21 – The World
Perfection, completion of a cycle or project, harvest, stability, fame, worldly success. Carefree, foolish, vague, indiscreet. A dancer clad in a scarf, with an oval wreath that surrounds her figure. The wreath symbolizes the mystery of creation. Divination Meaning – Overseas travel or change of residence. Success yet to be won. Reversed – Old habits die hard, difficulty in finishing something properly. Mental, physical or emotional exhaustion. Success blocked by inertia or shyness.

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Pagan Journeys: First Group Ritual

April 16, 2013 Leave a comment

So, this past weekend, I got to work in my first group ritual. I’ve done small things on my own before (one on my first anniversary with my current partner, worked pretty well). This is the first time I’ve joined in on a group ritual, and it was definitely an experience.

I’m not going to give exact reasons for the need for this ritual, out of respect to the party involved. However, this ritual was meant to help a friend in need and I’m always in support of that. So we set up a time for Saturday night to perform the ritual and we all came in at the same time. This started off very interesting.

I should note that this was done with an online group and we are all over the place, even across the sea in England. That made this that much more unique for me. And as we gathered our energy and channeled to to aid in the work to help our friend, we all got different visions of each other. Two people saw me as lightning, which works since my patron is Zeus. Others saw me in colors. The friend we were helping told me to her I was a very bright red. For me, I saw everyone as a large ball of rainbow light. I could sense everyone there, but I didn’t see them distinctly. It was unique to feel so much energy gathered at one time and working towards one goal. Others were seen in colors or as parts of nature, such as grass or flowers. Very interesting to me. Apparently, we all see auras and the like very differently. For instance, my best friend sees my aura as blue and it sparks like lightning. In this ritual I was seen as a really hot red and also as actual lightning. My old teacher saw my aura as a bright orange. Very different each time anyone sees my aura.

Then there was the after effect. I went to sleep that night and I had a dream. Now lately I’ve been dreaming of someone I’m spiritually linked to, so this was a nice change of pace. In my dream, I was in a brightly lit cave filled with crystals. In this dream, there was a woman in what I can only describe as an older styled blue gown. She was dark haired and kind of pale, and holding a long crystal wand. I could not identify her so I asked in the group the following day. The general consensus is that she was our friend’s mother, which was awesome for me to come across.

I suffered no ill effects from the amount of energy used in this ritual. It made me really hungry and I scarfed down half a pizza and a liter of Pepsi. Best experience ever, I think. I would love to do another, but on a smaller scale instead of the immediate pressing need that this one brought. I hope we can all get together for a more peaceful ritual the next time. I definitely felt good afterward and it seems like a lot of good energy is surrounding me now.

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Pagan Journeys: Dealing with Christians

April 6, 2013 5 comments

I have not blogged on my journey lately and for that I’m sorry. I’ve gotten rather caught up in personal life issues and just haven’t had the time to sit and properly document things. But now I’m going to tackle a problem that I was reminded of just last night: Christians.

Now, I’m not one of those pagans that hates Christians. On the contrary, I realize we share some similar principles. However, there are quite a number of differences and there are problems associating with Christians. Clearly, we don’t have the strict doctrines of the Christian faith. We do not have a god that is quite that demanding. I for one believe in many gods and most pagans have a different patron. Some choose Greek Gods, some choose Roman, Norse, Egyptian, Celtic, Japanese etc. Personally, my patrons are Zeus and Hera, the king and queen of the Greek Gods.

So why am I speaking on this? Because Christians have a problem with me and my choice of faith and my sexuality. And it is increasingly difficult to deal with. For instance, my best friend is Christian. She has a habit of quoting biblical bullshit at me about homosexuality being wrong. I respect her faith, but it’s a little annoying when your best friend essentially likes to tell you you’re sinning and going to a hell you don’t believe in. But what struck me is her problem with my significant other going to church.

Let me interject here, I have no problem with him going to church. If he’s finding a faith that speaks to him, spectacular. As long as he doesn’t try to get me into the house of Yahweh, we’re good. I respect Yahweh and the ideals He’s supposed to represent, but he is not my patron. I do not follow his doctrines, and I believe his doctrines have been scrambled over the years and his words distorted.

Back on point, she has a problem with this because in her eyes homosexuality is a sin. Now, I had to point out, plenty of homosexuals grew up in Christian homes and adhere to many of the Christian values, but their interpretation of the Bible does not lead them to believe that their sexual preference is a sin. I also pointed out that there are those that believe that the Old Testament, which houses the chapter of Leviticus that says that “man shall not lie with man as with woman. It is an abomination”, is meant for God’s chosen people, the Jewish people, and the New Testament is for Christians. I added further onto this that Jesus does not preach hate and intolerance, nor does he condone this judgment of others. So in her mind, homosexuals should not be going to church because they are sinning and trying to stop.

This is a prime example of why I can never follow this faith. No one can agree on the interpretation of the ancient texts. Die-hards such as her refuse to acknowledge that the versions of the bible she has seen are compiled from what people in power decided hundreds of years ago should go into it, and not all texts of the bible are actually included in it. Furthermore, your faith is on the decline and you would push people out seeking out your god because you don’t agree with you sexual preferences? This is where I get offended, and she’s not the only one I’ve come across like this.

So how do I deal with these type of Christians? Honestly, I push them away. I do not thrive on confrontation, and when you point out to these types of Christians the faults in their logic, their mind cannot comprehend it and therefore they lash out. Now, the result of this tends to be me losing my inner peace and smacking the shit out of them, so I prefer to avoid the topic of religion and sexuality whenever possible. However, the latter is rather impossible being that it is my sexuality they have a problem with. And it does not register to these people that a)paganism predates their religion b)we don’t believe in what they believe and c)they really can’t change our minds. You lack the ability to convince us of your belief system, and your insistence on persecuting all that do not follow what you think is your path is clearly pushing people away from your religion.

Now, are there nice and understanding Christians? Yes, there are. These are the ones that know their faith and are comfortable with it. They acknowledge history, which shows that the majority of their holidays were taken from Pagan holidays. They hold sensible conversations and ask questions to compare our faith to theirs. These are the Christians that see the similarities in our value systems and simply respect that we do not worship Yahweh, though we do acknowledge his existence the same way we do Zeus, Odin, Ra, or whatever other ancient god we choose to worship. These Christians are tolerant and can have a peaceful conversation with you about their beliefs and their scriptures without putting you down and they understand that they are not the final judge, so they cannot tell you that you are going to hell. These are Christians who will not focus on your sexuality because they understand that a true Christian has their own personal relationship with God. God is all knowing and to have faith is to know the Lord, right? Meaning, if God hasn’t shown some drastic problem with homosexuals, it is not their place to do so. In the end, God is the final judge in the Christian faith, and he will decide on Judgment Day the fate of all souls.

The latter type of Christian is getting few and far between. I have grown accustomed to the closed minded ones, and this makes it so hard to respect their faith or to take the high road and ignore them. I am in a pagan group on Facebook. I’m bisexual and I’m sure there’s a lesbian or two in the group. No one cares. We speak with respect at all times. All of them showed some form of support on the issue of gay marriage. I have conversations with the ladies on famous guys I think are hot. It is normal. We all have patrons from different pantheons, but none cast judgment on the others. We try our best to uplift each other. If we find someone interested in the pagan or Wiccan path and they ask legitimate questions, we answer them. We don’t feel the need to force anyone to our belief system. It is not for everyone. Just as Christianity isn’t for everyone. In this group, I find myself able to vent about anything. I never feel like an outsider, I never feel as if anyone looks down on me. And we don’t sit around and bash Christians. We do acknowledge problems we run into with our Christian family members and friends, and cases like this do come up. However, we do not have an outright hatred for the Christian faith. We know there are some that respect us and our faith. There are some that understand the concept that if one is going to come to Jesus, they will do it on their own and trying to force them to it will only push them further away. There are some that understand that some people just will not convert to the Christian faith and that doesn’t necessarily make them a bad person. These people are to be respected.

So, to clear this up, I’m not a hater of Christians or any other particular group of people. This particular group of people has become increasingly difficult to deal with. This is a particular bump that reoccurs constantly as I continue on my path. I find it easiest to avoid getting too heavy into the concept of faith and most definitely sexuality with the majority of these people. As I said, I prefer to avoid confrontation and with a large number of Christians that I run across, this particular issue causes problems of epic proportions. I hope to one day write on a completely positive experience with a Christian. I have faith that there are some true to their actual faith and not so closed minded.

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Pagan Journeys: My Patrons

January 7, 2013 1 comment

So, fellow pagans are probably wondering who my patron god and goddess are. We all have them. Some have names and some simply refer to them as the god and goddess. Personally, my patron god is Zeus and my patron goddess is his wife, Hera. I’m part of a group on Facebook where I notice everyone has patron gods from different pantheons, but none seem to use the Greeks. I have been asked by some who hadn’t discovered their patron what my patrons are like. I feel like it’s a good idea to share.

First, there’s Zeus. I mention him first because he came to me first. He’s the Greek king of the gods, and the god of lightning, storms, and the heavens.  He chose me, of course. His voice spoke very loudly and clearly to me not long after I started on this path. I hear him very often now. His voice is very deep and masculine. He’s very warm and inviting. His voice alone is as irresistible as the myths. I find he is not as strict on monogamy, but he believes strongly in true love. When I ask for guidance, he always replies if I ask him specifically. When I venture into the spirit world, he often walks beside me. He’s a very comforting presence most times. But when he desires my attention, he is somewhat dramatic. Normally I hear a very loud clap of thunder when there shouldn’t be or I’ll see lightning. When I acknowledge him after he speaks very clearly and directly whatever he wishes me to know.

The goddess Hera chose me as well. She is the queen of the Greek gods and goddess of marriage and fidelity. I was surprised by her. I expected Athena, goddess of wisdom and war. Instead, I began seeing peacock feathers everywhere about a year or so ago. And then her voice came. I find Hera to be more demanding than her husband. She doesn’t use bizarre weather to get my attention. She yells, much like any normal mother. For instance, I was in a store once looking for a chalice. I stopped to consider a bowl near some Buddhist statues. When I touched the bowl, Hera clearly stated (and I’m being generous with that wording), “Keep that thing off my altar!” Even now, every time I go near it, she yells. Outside of that, she’s warm and nurturing. Unlike her husband, she is very big on monogamy. When I was single for a while, she was clear in her desire for me to settle down. Generally, she speaks to me anytime I inquire about my love life. Her husband only speaks up if he is very determined to get me away from someone. Hera is a constant guide and very understanding of what I’m looking for. She also comments on friendships and the role others are meant to play in my life.

You may wonder if I like the pairing that chose me. Frankly, I love them. They’re perfect for me. They appeal to both sides of my nature. Zeus is representative of my active side and Hera my desire to be settled and happy. And the two never clash. I think Hera is far more understanding than she is in the myths. It’s the best thing ever to be in the presence of both at once. And they never seem to mind when I call on them. I ask their advice on a lot of things. Occasionally, some of the other gods and goddesses come as well. So far, only Aphrodite and Apollo. I mainly deal with Zeus and Hera though. They are very direct and demanding patrons. I love it. Each time I speak to them I understand why they chose me that much more and I’m quite happy with it.

Pagan Journey: Spiritual Links, Empathic abilities

December 26, 2012 Leave a comment

So I said I would do this and finally I’m going to start. I”m pagan, or more accurately wiccan. And just like I keep my experiences written in my personal BOS, I figured I could do the same on my blog. Besides, I have new friends that are on the same path as myself and they thought it would be interesting to read about the path from the view of a young male. Most are written by females, which I assume is because there are more women that are vocal about following the pagan or Wiccan path. Now, there are a number of topics that interest me but I decided to start with spiritual links because I feel fairly certain about them and my knowledge of them.

So, spiritual links. I have a few of these. And they’re with a variety of people. Now, before I started studying Wicca, I had no idea how to block these once formed. So I had an ex that nagged at me throughout other relationships because I could always tell when something was wrong with him. This caused a much longer link than necessary with him that has thankfully been broken for several years now.

I have one with a friend of mine, the ex boyfriend of my sister actually. I know how it formed. I was around him a lot and got to know him a lot better than most people, a surprising fact due to my sexuality and his phobia of it. I’m pretty much the only guy that likes guys that he thought of as just one of the boys. And while the two were together, I did a lot of helping to keep them together. He leaned on me then and the feeling never went away. Still hasn’t, even though I know how to shut it off. I guess I still care, even though he’s rather nagging and annoying.

It seems to me that the people I link with are normally fairly needy. This makes sense, being that I’m generally drawn to needier people. Depending on my current feelings with the person, I don’t overly mind these links. They can be inconvenient, especially when I have no way to contact the person in need. But all in all, not a bad quality.

Now, I do have a bit of a problem, which is connected to spiritual links, yet separate. I’m an empath, and some may not understand what that is. I’m very in tune with the emotions of those around me, to the point that I can get overwhelmed. I have yet to find a way to fully shut this particular ability off. Sometimes, it’s not a problem. But then again, those are times when I’m not surrounded by fairly strong emotions. When I am, I seem to channel the emotions of whoever is feeling the strongest. In other words, if there’s a really angry person in the group, I get angry and don’t understand why until I manage to trace the source of the emotion. I’m working on this one and researching but it is quite overwhelming. I get some help from my patron god every now and then, when I think to ask for his help. Certainly would love some suggestions on handling this one though.

Now, I think I’m off to go work on my BOS some more.